How screwed up would you say that I am?

She's a senior in college too? She should know that you want a piece of that, and that she shouldn't be hanging around a guy that isn't her boyfriend. She's either nuts or she wants to cheat. She may be better at you in those areas but she obviously doesn't have more common sense than you. Find a woman you can be with so you stop feeling not good enough. Everyone's perfect to someone out there. Focus on a career.