I FEEL SUICIDAL :/ please read?

I know how you feel. I still don't know if I was actually suicidal, but I would cut, try not to eat, and would contemplate suicide all the time (though I don't know how serious I was about it). I was set on destroying myself. It started when my parents got a divorce and lasted about 4 months (maybe more). School was getting harder and I just didn't want to deal with life anymore. I found that looking towards to future and surrounding myself with my friends helped a lot. I never talked to anyone about it, but I definitely recommend that you do (my depression wasn't very serious). Honestly, I'd talk to anyone who you can trust who won't judge you. Find a website that's set up for things like this. You will find someone to talk to. Just don't give up. Things will get better. And don't doubt that for a second. Believing that is what helped me.